It will really be quite frustrating to have to do this(MBA Prep) all over again. I know that many people keep on doing this year after year, so why should I be sheltered from it.

Im just thinking how difficult it will be to study and work, and then again I wont mostly get in. I will just try for foreign universities. That will be better, atleast I would get in. Although I don't know whether I can afford them.

And an MBA seems to be so necessary, yet im not getting in anywhere.

Should I really just do it from any college and get it over with?

And maybe I will get in somewhere good.

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Im sad because its being implied that im very old. At my age people have years of work experience behind them. I have to say that I modelled. At my age people have established themselves.
I feel like some old misfit.

What if I get a good job. Maybe I can just do an executive MBA later?

Im like a fresher who is 24. It feels sick. I should have been 21.
It doesn't seem like a big deal to me, but its a big deal to everyone else.

They are probably thinking about when Im intending to get married then.

I don't mind getting married, but to whom?

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I feel like I wanted things when I was young. Now I don't care about them. I don't even care about never being able to go abroad. The holiday gets over in a couple of days as it is.

But I think I need a family, especially children , else I will be quite bored. I mean there will be nothing in my life. Nothing to do.
And kids can make you so happy and they will give you some direction.

But I also need to work. And I also don't have anyone to marry.

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What is the point of thinking about all of this?
Im just going to take it as it comes.
Like the tortoise.